Monday, December 7, 2009

Another Year Older

In ten days from now, I turn 22 years old.  As I get older, I see that I need to improve upon my self-discipline and self-image.  I struggle with self-discipline the most.  Everyday I sleep in until the last minute and jump out of bed to get ready and rush out the door so I can get to work at a decent time.  I arrive at 10:30, when what I really want to do is start at 9:30.  Another issue is procrastination.  I postpone the more annoying or time consuming activities until I have forgotten about them.  "Eh, I'll do it later" has been my attitude since elementary school (amazingly I was a straight A student).  And the one thing that really bothers me; not finishing what I start.  Too many times have I begun a project that captures my attention, only to get frustrated in all the hard work and abandon it.

The second area I need improvement in is self-image.  I guess I still have a hard time seeing myself as a capable adult.  I still live with my parents and I almost don't picture myself as being on my own (it's expensive living in California!).  I remember feeling this way as a teenager...I couldn't visualize myself driving my own car or having a job; but I did it.  I'm also fearful of not being good enough in what I want to do.  I am a photographer at a portrait studio and even though my customers like my work, I still wonder if I am talented enough have my own studio.

Time to do more "soul searching" I guess.  I know I'll be fine; I just need some reassurance.  

2 comments:

spldbch said...

I'm not sure when a person comes to "feel like an adult." I'm 27 and I don't feel very much like an adult at all. Sometimes the confidence in our abilities come later -- after we've proved it to ourselves.

Armando said...

Sorry I miss some of you post but I did have some issues but I do like the most recent ones keep the good work
Also, hope you like my last posting as well I was absent for a while do to some problems I still have financially and health wise hope you are in good health
greetings Armando