In ten days from now, I turn 22 years old. As I get older, I see that I need to improve upon my self-discipline and self-image. I struggle with self-discipline the most. Everyday I sleep in until the last minute and jump out of bed to get ready and rush out the door so I can get to work at a decent time. I arrive at 10:30, when what I really want to do is start at 9:30. Another issue is procrastination. I postpone the more annoying or time consuming activities until I have forgotten about them. "Eh, I'll do it later" has been my attitude since elementary school (amazingly I was a straight A student). And the one thing that really bothers me; not finishing what I start. Too many times have I begun a project that captures my attention, only to get frustrated in all the hard work and abandon it.
The second area I need improvement in is self-image. I guess I still have a hard time seeing myself as a capable adult. I still live with my parents and I almost don't picture myself as being on my own (it's expensive living in California!). I remember feeling this way as a teenager...I couldn't visualize myself driving my own car or having a job; but I did it. I'm also fearful of not being good enough in what I want to do. I am a photographer at a portrait studio and even though my customers like my work, I still wonder if I am talented enough have my own studio.
Time to do more "soul searching" I guess. I know I'll be fine; I just need some reassurance.